There are this fortunate few in the world who, unbeknown to them, have one of the best gifts they can receive. A soulmate. The person who ignites their soul. That one person who, inspite of all of your flaws and mistakes, loves you whole-heartedly and completely. They never judge, and you know that they will be there for you no matter what.
Luckily, I was able to find my person at the early age of 19!
You never knew this, but the first time I laid my eyes on you, my heart skipped a beat. I had never known a man who was as brave as he was caring. All my life events had prepared me for the moment you came into my life, all of the heartbreaks, all of the mistakes, all of the lessons. The Lord brought us together for a reason, and I truly believe that. You were a light when I was lost. I had no idea what I wanted out of my life. I was a college dropout, I was a waitress, I was hopeless, and I felt that I was nothing. You gave me purpose. You gave me courage to be unapologetically me. You loved me, and you proved it. From the first flowers that you picked for me to the flowers you bought me a few months ago, I have kept almost every petal. You see, they may be worthless dead flowers to most but, to me, they are history and memories. I still have letters you wrote me 4 years ago. I still have every birthday card, every valentines card, and I still have that very first Alabama t-shirt you bought me. You were the best thing I never knew that I needed.
Although, no-one told me how difficult it was going to be, I stuck around.
Here are a few of the MANY reasons I love you:
1. You are my biggest supporter.
You have always believed in me know matter what it is that I put my mind to. You constantly reassure me that you will be there by my side. Those pep talks mean the world to me when I am feeling doubtful of myself.
2. You still give me butterflies.
Marriage is hard, I'm not going to lie. However, to this day, you make my heart flutter. You still make me nervous and give me weak ankles.
3. You love my family.
It is not a requirement to love your in-laws. Let's face it, many times couples’ distance themselves from their families once they are married. Yet, despite everything we have been through, you treat my family as nothing other than family. You love my mom like mom, you get along with my brother (my best friend), you care for my Grandmother, you help whenever they need us.
4. You call me beautiful every day without fail.
I never thought of myself as beautiful. As you know, my self-confidence is as low as it could possibly get. Growing up was tough when you would hear certain things about your weight, or the way you looked from classmates or even my father. Yet, you loved me when I thought no-one would love me. You came to me when every other guy thought I was "too fat". I'll never get tired of hearing your compliments and uplifting remarks. They really do make an “ugly" girl feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.
5. You fight for me.
It's no surprise to you that my anxiety is bad. I have many, many bad days. It can send me into a deep depression sometimes. Through those times you fight to make me know that I am not alone. You may not understand it, but you are always there to calm me down and bring me back to reality. You do everything in your power to help me through it.
6. You are an amazing father.
One of the reasons that I fell in love with you was because of how great of a father you are. You ALWAYS put your family first, no matter what. You make sure to protect and provide. Those days when I am drowning, you help me. You aren't afraid to change diapers, give baths, and you actually want to do it! You play with your children. You tell them all the time how much you love them.
7. You love me.
You helped me so much in some of the hardest times of my life. You held my head for me during labor when I couldn't. You woke up every feeding. You helped me in and out of bed when I couldn't do it. You bathed me. You rubbed my feet. You help me cook. You help me clean. You always prove to me just how much you truly love me.
I am a very hard person to deal with. I don't show my appreciation nearly enough. However, I cannot FATHOM my life without you. I not only want you, but I need you. You are my very best friend and I'm so thankful to have you in my life. These past 5 years have been a roller-coaster for sure, but I wouldn't go through it for anyone but you. We are a team, we are Katie and Anthony. Without you, there would be no me.
No one said marriage or life, for that matter, was easy, but I'm glad for the trials. It means that what we have is REAL. Conflicts help us grow in each other. I know what we have will last because we know we can work through anything. Once I realized that, I realized that everything else- all the struggles, bills, worries- fade away. We are on a beautiful ride called life and I wouldn't want to be on it with anyone else, my King.
I love you with my entire being......